Food Log / Sunday (Adam)

Meh.



Started out the day on plan, eating the best salad ever ever ever (see yesterday for details)



The day slowly went downhill starting with the mindless eating of popcorn with a boatload of butter way past the point of being content.

I then weighed myself knowing that is is always a convenient gateway to emotional eating. The number on the scale remains irreverent. If I see a number I perceive as too high, I feel cheated and depressed (foodfood!) — If I see number that I like then I view it as an excuse to cheat because I am “ahead of schedule” (foodfood!) — So dumb.



Movie night (Anthony and I host a house full of people here each Sunday) so as usual food was involved. I ate massive amounts of the worse kind of foods. Tempura Vegetables, Chocolate, Donuts, Granola Bar, Ice Cream, Hot Dogs, Chips… Total binge. Unbelievable amounts of all the worst. Just eating and eating and eating way past the point of being full. Mindless indulgence. Numbing over-consumption.

So I sit here now - Sick, lethargic, and demoralized. I know this is one day of falling after 6 straight of being healthy… It’s hard though. I don’t like feeling like this. — On the upside, it was mostly social overeating rather than bingeing alone which is somehow better for me to deal with mentally.

I will continue to post here, good or bad. It has helped me this week.

Lauren, I am proud of you for keeping up with the exercise even on days of not eating well. Lets make this week a good one! Love you!

-Adam